you know what sucks,

when you really like someone and then they show a small hint of affectionate, so you cling to that and hope that there might be a small possibility of them liking you back. So you put in all this effort to talk to them, try and make time for them and pour out your to them. Then somewhere along the way, you find out that they talk to other people too. That you were no one special, no exception, just another person. But what sucks is that your heart was set up on them and no one else, you hoped and and hoped. You didn’t talk to anyone because you hoped they might feel the same way. But the real tragedy is waiting. Waiting for them. Always waiting for a text or a call, but it never comes. That’s what really sucks, the hope you had.

I met Glen Coco from mean Girls today.

So yea, Glen Coco came to my workplace today (well he’s real name is David Reale) Anyways I recognized him right away. I asked one of my co workers that was serving him to actually ask if he was Glen from Mean Girls and he said “yes, but how does he know that?”. My co worker told me that I am a creep and I shouldn’t know this things, and I merely shrugged my shoulders at the remark. And later on I found out that he was never credited for the movie and wasn’t even payed. He wasn’t even suppose to be in the movie, one of the directors just saw him across the street and ask if he could be an extra. So he only filmed for one day. He was telling me this while I was cashing him out. I told him how one scene and one name can become such a pop culture icon. and I also asked him why Glen Coco got four candy canes and he replied “That is forever the mystery of Glen Coco” he shook my hand and said bye, and left with his girlfriend, lol such an awesome guy. Four for you Glen Coco, you go Glen Coco!

drifting.

I’m losing communication with a lot of people. I don’t mean it to happen, it just happens. I’m slowly realizing that I don’t have that many close friends anymore. Of course there are those 2-3 people I’m really close to, but other than that, its a struggle to try and sync with everyone’s different schedule. Everyone is just doing there own thing now, it’s not high school anymore. Even making new friends is a constant struggle and an issue. I’t not like in high school where you’re put into a class and you see them everyday. Building a relationship is easier, no planning, just the inevitable. But post secondary life is way more challenging. You gotta put in the effort and the patience for some people, and sometimes those expectation aren’t met and relationships begin to crumble. Maybe I’m drifting because I’m not giving as much effort anymore or maybe it’s just the fact that I’m growing up and I’m fucking tired of people’s shit.

as I look at myself in the mirror, I’m realizing my hairline is slowly receding

all the creys in the world.

I’m actually really sad.

It’s better to have a fuck it attitude rather then being so vulnerable and putting your feeling out there. Because in the end, when you get hurt, it wouldn’t hurt as much, as to compare to putting your heart out there and being all broken and shiz.

I am clearly getting way to excited for something that is not gonna happen.

looks like I’m going to be watching Beauty and The Beast by myself tomorow.

wow I’m so fucking alone.

GAY ASIAN CLIQUES IN TORONTO.

Faker then press on nails.

That is all.

where were you when I was falling apart?